I want to write but can’t
my head is spinning around
my mind is flooded with thoughts
but cant streamline them down
The thoughts of thinking of what if and if and if??
The thoughts of vagueness of thoughts
The thoughts of the stillness of thoughts
The thoughts of the confusion of mind
The thoughts of shrinking of the heart
The thoughts of remembering the memories
The thoughts of lingering yesterday
The thoughts of what is the next step
Allah’s wisdom is hard to fathom. There are events passed that turned into the maze. At times, it feels like standing at the crossroads and other times, feels like you do not know where this journey leads you.
There is a maxim says that “if you do not risk anything, you will risk everything”. Well, yah its true how would you know if a certain thing is will be yours if you won’t take a risk. Then when I take a risk, riddles, mazes, turbulence and confusion have laid at the doorsteps. They have led me in topsy-turvy world. There are people who were judgmental, throwing blame on me and being so insensitive sometimes.
These events left a profound effect on me. The thought of me that pains will go away was just a thought. It still persists and I do not why. The people who’ve been judgmental disturbed me.
Then I just realized that why should i why drain and energy my time with these. It’s true that there is always Allah’s wisdom in every turn of event but we human being hardly dissect it. Because of these events, I opted to be indifferent because after all whatever Allah’s message will prevail in a right time. LET TIME DECIDE…
Allah’s wisdom is hard to fathom. There are events passed that turned into the maze. At times, it feels like standing at the crossroads and other times, feels like you do not know where this journey leads you.
There is a maxim says that “if you do not risk anything, you will risk everything”. Well, yah its true how would you know if a certain thing is will be yours if you won’t take a risk. Then when I take a risk, riddles, mazes, turbulence and confusion have laid at the doorsteps. They have led me in topsy-turvy world. There are people who were judgmental, throwing blame on me and being so insensitive sometimes.
These events left a profound effect on me. The thought of me that pains will go away was just a thought. It still persists and I do not why. The people who’ve been judgmental disturbed me.
Then I just realized that why should i why drain and energy my time with these. It’s true that there is always Allah’s wisdom in every turn of event but we human being hardly dissect it. Because of these events, I opted to be indifferent because after all whatever Allah’s message will prevail in a right time. LET TIME DECIDE…
*there is indeed politics of life---you, yourself is the main player, dont get succumbed to your sorroundings. see the big picture, then find out what role you're gonna play.
*life is gambling---do not gamble yourself that entails an ominoues future. its hard to do. but strike a balance between rationality and emotion.
*do not tell you others whom you cannot fully trust about your weaknesses. you will never know they will use them against you.
*do not dwell your self to nonsensical and absurd things, they just make you unproductive and prevent you from being happy
*avoid yourself from TOXIC friends. they drain your positive energy that deteriorates your emotional well-being---go to to this LINK to find more about TOXIC FRIENDS and how to HANDLE it,,http://toxicfriendships.org/aboutus.aspx
*just go with the flow...don't rush to the conclusion.
*ABOVE ALL---don't despair to ALLAH's will...He will always do the justice for you, wait for that time.
you told me you loved me
you told me you cared about me
you told me you i am most valued
you told me you can't let go of me
but when the eggs crumbled,
did hold you hold on?
when asked to turn back time,
didn't you turn your back?
you told me i am most valued,
but you did what i makes hurt the most
you told me you can't let go of me
but you let other come to your life
now here comes another,
did what you expect you to do,
now here i am.
willing to surrender my love.
now that i am gone,
now that you want me back
now that i can't afford to break a sincere heart
now I am sorry...
| Ramadhan is a month that requires every Muslim to fast as a fulfillment of its accountability to Allah S.W.T. It is a blessed month that Allah S.W.T has given us the golden opportunity. Every Muslim is bestowed with opportunity to reap many rewards that only this Ramadhan offers. Allah gives us the opportunity in this month to reform and mend ourlsenes for the past sins. Moreover, it is in this month that Qur’an was revealed to Prophet (S.A.W.), then recitation of Qur’an is another huge advantage for us to gain reward because the in every letter you read is tantamount to seventy rewards.
Since it is now the month of Ramadhan, let us ask ourselves how many years of fasting have passed and how much it changed us? Then again let’s ask ourselves why Muslim Community is in the state of backwardness? Then again let’s ask ourselves why Qur’an has been revealed to Prophet (S.W.A). The following verse will give us the understanding why Qur’an has been revealed to Mohammad (S.AW). Allah said in the Qur’anic verse 2:185 “The Month of Ramadhan in which was revealed the Qur’an, a guidance for the people and clear proofs of guidance and criterion.” It is revealed so that we may not go astray.
Unfortunately, the Muslims nowadays do not tune in to the teachings of Islam. They reject some and accept the Islamic principles that have laid down in the Holy Qur’an. As a result of this, most Muslims have been misguided and their society has fallen into a naught.
Let us go back to Qur’an and make this Ramadhan a start for a new beginning. We should clean our soul and apply the content of the Qur’an in all aspects of out life and become fortunate. As al-Ghazali said that Allah does not oppress any man but man himself oppresses his soul and become unfortunate. Let this Ramadhan an avenue for a brighter future. Let us read Qur’an while putting into practice what Allah has decreed. Following Qur’an holistically will make us a prosperous society as it set as a divine guidance for us by our Creator. |
let us face the fact that we are sent to earth by ALLAH (S.W.T.) with a sacred purpose. our creator made us Humans as the best among His creature because of our intellect and rational mind.
moreover, Human intellect is purportedly created not in vain. it is for deciphering the existence of ALLAH (S.W.T.) and to epitomise that we human beings are vicegerent of God bestowed with human intellect that is to thrive for the development and welfare of Mankind especially Muslim Ummah.
as the Muslim World flunk in the surge of losing ground. the rational mind can discern this happen and what cause what??....
unfortunately, there are some Muslims who have fallen prey to the indulgence of their faculty of reason. they are too much imbued in their rationality and logic but discarding the divine intervention.
like for instance, if we turn our attention to the Muslim Community nowadays, the Muslim world technologically, militarily, politically is in the brink of backwardness. but you cannot solely rely on logical assumption that Muslims will not return to its lost glory based on its current status. the myriad of turbulences affecting the Muslims today do not mean total failures, because in every event, there is a wisdom and lesson we can draw from. failures portray as a wake up call but this are being overshadowed by many of the muslims secularised mind.
the muslim secularised mind sometimes neglect the fact that the reason of the malady of the Ummah is the disentanglement of the Quran in every aspect of Muslim mind.they even overshadow the divine will that everything is possible to ALLAH (S.W.T.) if we only coalesce the rational mind with the divine intervention, then we can grasp a sheer of optimism in the future.
Everyday is another step farther to lead into the unknown and unraveled destiny. Allah has set everything to each of His creator. But He set everything in a guarded tablet that no body knows except Him. What destined to be fixed is that everybody will come to final destination. Only that we do not know when is our turn to embark to such final end. The rest is unknown and unraveled. It is us who traverse across the ocean, who travel a thousand miles, who struggle a daunting journey to unfold that uncertain destiny.
Along a far away and wearing expedition of life, Allah always put up mysterious links that chain the one journey to another that will lead us to our destiny. Allah works in mysterious ways that sometimes we human do not keep an eye.
For me, I have prepared myself to travel a long journey if my Creator requires me to climb a mountain, to cruise the ocean, to cry a river. After all, life as I said is a journey, a long travel to the vague and ambiguous future. I will just enjoy the wonders and marvels of the world while running or walking or even crawling in meeting the destiny.
Inspired by my Gari,,,=)
it's been awhile that i have not updated my blog. constraint of time and emptiness of stories to tell do not explain it. in fact, i have plenty of stories to share from all angles of my life ...
many thing come along the way. i enjoy and adore some, i remorse and mourn others. however what surfaces now is "ME" "MYSELF"..this does not signify selfishness but denotes being "ME" the emergence pf myself from yesterday's events.
i have learned the process of forgiving some people who wronged me and left a scar. i have learned to throw away grudges and hatred.
if i am asked what is my feeling right now, i would definitely say...i am happy~~i am happy because i have acknowledged my mistakes, i have admitted to myself that i did unfairness. recognizing them emancipated me from shackles. i felt that my life went to amiss and fell into abyss and become helpless. but now ALHAMDULILLAH... i emerged from that darkness. after all, life is like a road, you sometimes stumble and get wounded but rise up and mend yourself.
hatred is what prevents man from love and happiness. that is what i took lessons from my experience..but i am happy now, i am free of grudges,,i just want to be happy, i just want to see my loved ones happy and see them happy with me....i just want to please ALLAH.
ALHAMDULILLAH
writing for me is a matter of expressing my feeling.
it is a matter of how do i see world.
it is a matter of how i live my life.
it is a matter of how i love people around me.
it is a matter of how i want to see the world to be.
i write because i find happiness in there.
whenever i write my feeling it detaches me from the world filled chaos,lies, hatred, deception.
whenever i write, it emblazons my world wit full of hopes, joys and love.
whenever i write, it transforms me to a vivid and real me.
i write because it feeds my soul. whatever i write shines through from my heart. it is about a voice for within that are put into words with heart and souls.
one important thing why do i write, because i want to find the truth, i want the truth to prevail. and above all, i want to leave a legacy. i want my family and friends to read my writings when i die and inspire and motivate them..
as one writer said, writing is a form of freedom. you can be yourself in writing. write whatever you want. write whatever you feel. write whatever that can inspire others and change the world.
above everything else....I LOVE MYSELF because i write!! i write what i believe in..
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This blog is intended to air the personal experience and perception of the Author in various dimensions of life may it be political, religious and social.
It is created to not to provoke anyone but a mere expression of oneself . The author tries to write article that could generate a good lesson to draw from.
the author asks for apology it there is something uttered that maybe unbecoming and for the grammatical errors.
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It is created to not to provoke anyone but a mere expression of oneself . The author tries to write article that could generate a good lesson to draw from.
the author asks for apology it there is something uttered that maybe unbecoming and for the grammatical errors.
THIS IS FOR POSTERITY...
